Sometimes i want to end myself. [I Feel Suicidal]

There have been many events that have taken place these past few weeks some good, some very tragic and painful.

Suicide has been on my mind but that's a normal thing for me.

Suicide is always on my mind.

Sometimes it get really bad.
When it does I just sit on the floor rocking myself or lay there.
I dont move because if I do I feel I will try to end myself.

My last suicide attempt was 2 years ago.
I stopped using any kind of substance about 2 years ago.

I'm getting better but it's a slow process.

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Pfuzylogic · M Best Comment

This Covid isolation has been tough on everyone. Give yourself some time and take opportunities to be kind to yourself.

Doomflower · 36-40, M

I'm like that. Chronically suicidal. Its hard to explain that I am never really NOT. I go through periods where I don't actively think about ending my game but even at my best I will cheerfully tell you that life is terrible and most of us would have been better off never born.

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Doomflower · 36-40, M

@Elevatorpitches from personal experience:

People who talk the way you do are usually the people who have serious personality disorders that stop them from being able to engage meaningfully in treatment.

Elevatorpitches · F

@Doomflower OH PUHLEEEEZE

act nuts and you will get what u want

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Elevatorpitches · F

ummm.. if you call the crisis hotline they will mess u up too, those people couldn't care less, they get paid by the system

AND if they can get u locked up they might get a BONUS. So just a word to the wise

In the joint they blather all day about loving yourself and act as ignorant and exploitive as the hotline workers

Mostly they want you to SAY you are better. Makes their job easier

The five RICHEST people in my state are all

MALE

PSYCHIATRISTS

The nuthouse will lie on your record to get you locked in..even if you are not a threat to anyone and only hurting so much you cant stand it.. That stuff they couldn't care less.

Pinkstarburst

I have a list on my mirror that lists every reason to stay alive. I read it every morning. It reads from the simple little things like sunrises to the darker like not wanting hubs to find me or having to identifying me. The list doesn’t always make me feel sunshine and rainbows, but it reminds me why I need to stay.

Manzi · 56-60, M

Iam going through the same it never ends.iam here watching 📺 with no volume.

JP1119 · 36-40, M

We can chat about the events of the last few weeks. Inbox me if you would like to.

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