Just putting my worries here so i can sleep.

I've been wondering why is it so hard for me to "put myself out there" and Make friends. I häve these problems that when i'm like starting conversation or interaction with people i feel like before that My heart is about to burst and i start heating up and sweating like crazy. Like there are forces in my body that won't allow me to do social stuff.

Also the one problem might Be that i dont have that much going on in my life that i would have comfortable to be like connecting people with. Like only three things i cant think of now is videogames, music and walking in forests and more like finnish tuntureilla. And those are like things i cant for the Life of me know where to find others that like The same things that i do. Like for music conserts would be The place. But first of all, too much people, too noisy so my migrane wouldnt like it and i doubt i could make friends there anyway.

And also also. Its hard for me to leave from My comfort zone.

There are Probaply More things to complain about, but its too late and its hard to write with Finnish autocorrection on my phone.

This site has been quite helpful to let me complain about things i normally wouldnt say to anyone.

Thanks for reading and sry for hard to read text.

Top | Newest First | Oldest First

riseofthemachine · 41-45, M

I find it hard talking to people .
Your not on your own there .
I'm 43 and all I do is play PlayStation games watch movies and walking .
I never went to work for a long time and the reason why I never went back to work was cause I got bullied bad in every workplace I was at .
So I didn't bother going back .
I was in a relationship for years and that went very sour .
I went to Hong Kong supposed to go to Australia for a years with the girl I was got a nervous breakdown over there , had to come back .
She finishes it when we came back after a few weeks . Later I found out she cheated on me .
She denied that to me before I went to Hong Kong Australia and she decided to move away to sort it out but she denied and it was inside my head to work it out over in Hong Kong but she kept on denying it and I ended up getting a nervous breakdown over there . I lost $3500 over in Hong Kong
When we came back to where I'm from I caught the 2 of them . Roll on another few weeks my best friend died at 38 back in 2010 ,3 months after the break up . 2010 I ended up in a pysche ward for 6 weeks over it .
What I'm trying to say is that anything that came close to me went and that I thought was good for my self esteem ended up knocking me down again . I withdrew from people , but what happens when you withdraw from people the self judgement comes based on self esteem .
Do you get me now .
Your self esteem can get you so bad is that you even dislike the sound of your own voice .
So don't wip yourself . If your wiping yourself do it with a feather .
I'm after living a life and not feeling sorry for myself you couldn't do it in 500 years with the pain I went through .
So my friend don't be too hard on yourself

Heavenlywarrior · 36-40, M

Be confident in yourself. Go where you want to be and you will find what makes you happy.
Things will flow like fine wine.

Lilliesandlight · 41-45, F

I have a hard time talking to people too. I just assume they will automatically dislike me

Lilliesandlight · 41-45, F

It's hard for me to relate to people too. You aren't alone

Add a comment...