I Pretend I'm Okay
I have to pretend. I have to keep up a certain level for my job, and for my kids.I can't let either of those know even a quarter of how broken I am.
51-55, M
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GeniUs · 56-60, M
Yep that was me, think I had a breakdown and nobody spotted it because all those learning packages, training days, role playing scenarios were only about getting a 'passed' tick in the box and not about learning what to look out for. Sounds like you are close, is there anything that can be done? PM if needed I don't think/know if I can help but I've been there.
Lostinthefog · 51-55, M
@GeniUs thank you. Just a lot of stuff going on currently that's making it harder and harder each day. I'm at a point where I either have to make some huge life changing decisions, or possibly have a major break down.
GeniUs · 56-60, M
I changed jobs in the end but was divorced my 'better half' (joke) would never have let me get away with that, she would have rather I died so she could pick up the cash and be a grieving widow. Anyway I changed jobs for a lower paid one but one where I was more in control (ie tech author is not expected to manage projects)and it helped.