I Pretend I'm Okay

@PoetryNEmotion many, many reasons. If I didn't pretend at work, I wouldn't make it through the week, and would lose my job. I have to pretend that I'm perfectly fine to keep up a leadership role.

With the kids,I feel like it would destroy how they felt about both their parents, as I couldn't explain the 'whys' easily. They see the dad who is always strong and always there for everybody when they need me.

@Lostinthefog It is false. Work, I can see this working. But why lie to your children? Do you teach your son to not cry too? How can you live this way? It promotes sickness among other negativities.

Oh, I'm not just talking about emotions. I let my kids see me cry, and show hurt, etc. But there is a level still that I have to keep. There's a lot more to it. My wife suffers from clinical depression and ptsd. If I give in to my level of depression and anxiety, every thing would collapse in on the family. I have to be the strong one and hold everything together.

@Lostinthefog I see. It is your life. You must live it. Is she receiving treatment? How are your children doing with seeing her like this?

She has recently started treatment again, due to her not dealing well with our daughter and her bf moving out.

@Lostinthefog Good luck with that. I hope you don't have to pretend for the rest of your life or until your kids move out.