Venting ( again )

So for those who don’t know I went on burnout leave in November and started reintegrating in April and reaching full schedule about a month ago . Last Monday I had a sever panic attack that felt like a heart attack. It was so bad that the warehouse manager called the ambulance . I really thought I was going to die that day … I know it’s silly but it is really how I felt . Since them I haven’t been able to shake that feeling . Also the feeling of shame and sadness that all the hard work I into my reintration was for nothing . I have to commute two hours to get to work since my job changed location , we were promised logistical or financial help but nothing has happen yet . Not looking forward to go back to the therapist but I’m afraid this is what is going to happen . Sorry for the long post … I do treat this site a little like therapy sometimes