Another sleepless night?

During the light of day I busy myself and you rarely cross my mind.
When darkness falls it’s a different story and my mind replays the good times.
My evening ritual of chores and reading keeps my memory of you at bay.
It’s when my head hits my pillow you flood my brain.
I toss and turn, laugh and cry I feel a little crazy actually, still hearing your voice and seeing your face.
All I can do is hope for exhaustion to take over so I can close my eyes, but you haunt my dreams too.

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BetweenKittensandRiots · 36-40, MVIP

I think of ma chérie much when i'm falling asleep.

It's something of lament that my dreams tend to be of things I thought of during the wakng hours but briefly.

Because I thnk about her entirely too mcuh to dream of her.

::sighing::: To fall asleep in her arms.

Sorry, you just inspired me somewhat ;x I'm not suffering insomnia but the caffeine makes it hard to not Wake back to bed problems. will be fixed soon as I taper off with No doz.

SW-User

@BetweenKittensandRiots that is sweet, I can relate to how you feel.
Thank you

BetweenKittensandRiots · 36-40, MVIP

@SW-User she knows by now too that my usual emotional gaurd softens as i'm falling asleep. will usuaully get something of a ramble from me but generally a flattering one.

last night it was just the friend who brought us together and her are . well, on Thin ice and ther'e's tension.

that friend is seriously hurt because Alyssa did not give her money when she needed it and told her( was a he before btw. transwoman) that she was not human cash register.

it was uncourteous of her but Of course understandablle because michelle ask every few days for 10 here 20 there 45 there and it's usually me now that has kept her aflloat with some hope the state will pick up the tab and I won't have to anymore as she applies to SNAP and every other benefit program and well Alyssa (my love) and michelle (The mutual friend who united us.) have not been on speaking terms because michlle eventually just pushed her into wits end.

and I have to remind michelle that Alyssa has sent her care packages before. I had to tell alyssa I have no doubt that if didn't just have too much on your plate you woudl have run to help her but she just didn't get you had other priotititys and many of them were charitable and signfiicant

alyssa's family runs food drives during the holidays to feed the hungry she's always been very giving..

and so watching those two fued, I told lys about it she was like don't. It's my decision it's personal and such nad so tonight I was just telling her I have complete confidence that whatever she found more important than michelle mattered quite a bit.

and that I admmire her so much that my faith in her has not been shaken by things.

SW-User

@BetweenKittensandRiots it’s sad but money gets in between people, family, close friends, partners etc. it doesn’t matter. She’s lucky to have a supportive partner in you.

BetweenKittensandRiots · 36-40, MVIP

@SW-User I hate what money does at this point because these are the type too that usually don't let it but somehow it's come between them and it's disheartening because minus michelle we'd never of met. (me and lyssa)

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Save Ferris - The Only Way To Be

They all meant well, lyssa just ended up with too much on her plate.