I Can't Sleep

My dear friend, you need to switch off your brain a bit. Those anxieties will be there but the days will still pass. I am a worrier too. I look at the week ahead and even with three stacks of marking done over the weekend, I know there will still be work coming at me next week. I have not had time to work out my finances, my housing issue, and every time they send me those insurance documents, I do not understand much of them. It is a crazy world. And I think sometimes these things are made obscure on purpose because those insurance people want to make a quick buck and keep us in the dark. Yes. I am that skeptical too. It used to be that that I have thoughts like - if I die tomorrow, will it make any difference to the world? They will just find another worker to replace me. They have so many willing compliant workers here in this part of the world who would gladly take my place. We are so defined by our work, spending our waking hours immersed in it. And yet, deep down, we know it is not the most important thing in life. Now, how do we reconcile that?

Novembermoon said it all, I think.
From the plain practical side of things, it sounds like a circle that you need to break somehow. To ease your worries, you need to know that you will be covered if you feel sick. It is a sad true that companies may cheat you.
Ask people you know personally which company they have their health insured by, and how their experiences have been.

Just keep taking every day as the next. Just relax