I need help with something

Im gone too far beyond a psychiatrist to reach me on a spiritual basis . There's no getting through to me cause im not taking there word .
On a holy basis i don't know who can reach me cause over the pain im gone through mentally with situtions going on , on an ongoing for 12 years . Very painful situation which brings up a lot of resentments towards others , then resenting myself for leaving it happen to me constantly . Im not a fighting man , its not my morals i have but the pain is something savage , so i went on to religious beliefs that helped me , gave me faith , but still its to painful .
I be afraid at times im after living my life very fast and went tbrough pain that some people wouldn't go through in a 1000 lifetimes .
So im after loosing so much interest in life .
I witnessed too much . Im afraid id top myself soon .
My parents are elderly and if i do that i could take them out at the age they are .
Anyone relate to the thinking ?
Anyone relate to hard , abusive situations they had ?
Anyone got through hard times and not clinging to resentments.
Anyone stopped trusting everyone ?

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LadyGrace ·

Sounds like a real burnout on life. And sometimes when there's way too much on our plate, while God is always there and never abandons us, it's us who move away from him, as we are sometimes not even ready to think about anything to do with anything, if you know what I mean. We feel frozen. We're just not in the right frame of mind to handle one thing more. Been there. Done that. Your mind needs a rest. If you want to just speak your mind and have a sort of sounding board, I'm still here for you. This can all be unraveled, a thread at a time and not rushed. Sometimes we just need someone to listen. One can find their way back from PTSD. I've done it and so has a friend of mine....just by talking it through. No rushing. There's still hope. I don't have all the answers, but I make a good friend and listener. Sometimes that's all we need...a good listener.