I feel like I don't want to go on

Like, I wish I could just die, too
I have never felt more alone in my life.
I can just imagine the responses:
"you don't mean that",
"don't say that" or worse yet
" you gotta move on"
Just how does one move on? Because someone tells you to?
I do know what I mean- it's just taboo to say it out loud.
If I don't express these thoughts it won't make the thoughts go away, they'll still crash over me like waves of insanity.
I'm depressed -I just want to sleep and not wake up.
But, yet I am not suicidal...
I just don't know how to move on
I don't know how to want to live

I want to be able to express these thoughts and be understood and not be scolded.
I don't want stupid pat answers or those lacking in understanding or empathy.
I don't want a lecture or verbal tripe disguised as advice.
I don't know exactly what I want ,but I know I don't want the above.
Empathy, understanding from someone who has gone through this and found a way- maybe ?
Or even someone who's going through it now and understands what I'm feeling? Perhaps.