my mom deserved better
i wish i had told her i loved her. she was really, really suffering and i spent years screaming horrible things at her. sometimes i think about how much everyone in her life failed her from birth till death. her parents, her twin.. but i was probably about the worst thing that had ever happened to her
in the last years of living together we laughed a lot and we'd go to eachothers rooms to share memes and chat but i still never told her i loved her. i told everyone else whenever i talked about her but not her. i never apologized to her
on one hand i hope she lives another life where she doesn't meet my dad. she can pursue her career and see the world, go to shows, dance at bars with her friends. then come home to her animals and work on her art. the money that she was supposed to get- money she was a few months shy of receiving before she died, she can collect and she can bring her vision board to life.
but on the other hand she has suffered enough and i know she would hate to see the world as it is now
in the last years of living together we laughed a lot and we'd go to eachothers rooms to share memes and chat but i still never told her i loved her. i told everyone else whenever i talked about her but not her. i never apologized to her
on one hand i hope she lives another life where she doesn't meet my dad. she can pursue her career and see the world, go to shows, dance at bars with her friends. then come home to her animals and work on her art. the money that she was supposed to get- money she was a few months shy of receiving before she died, she can collect and she can bring her vision board to life.
but on the other hand she has suffered enough and i know she would hate to see the world as it is now
