I need help

In November I lost my aunt and my Grandmother. In January my Dad developed pneumonia and spent three months in the hospital to be released home on hospice. Beginning of May my two oldest son’s best friend committed suicide. A boy I helped raise who was at my house all the time. I cooked for him, babysat him, was at all his ball games.

A week later our sweet lab had a tragic accident and I watched my frantic husband use all his medical knowledge to try to save him to no avail. The following week May 25th my Dad passed. My whole world just shattered at that point.

I’m broken. I can’t clean, I can’t cook. It’s been 3 days since I’ve even showered. My once neat tidy home is a train wreck. I can’t even figure out where to begin. I walk around numb. Tears just fall all the time. Too many memories everywhere.

There’s so much going on besides all that like financial difficulties and issues with a family member. Things I could handle normally with ease but right now it’s too much.

I can’t watch the news because all the things happening around the world paralyze me.

How do I get back to normal. How do I do this. My person that always calmed me always had an ear for me always comforted me. My Dad. Is gone now.

My mom is just broken. 61 years with the love of her life and it’s all just gone. I can be strong for her while I’m around her but I leave and just fall apart.

I feel like I can’t do this anymore it’s too hard too painful but giving up isn’t an option so here I am. I’m just here.