Is it normal to grieve and cry weekly about loss from 3 years ago?

My dog grandma and best friend all died within 2 months from each other. I was so numb during all of it that I don’t think I processed it. I was just like there goes another one and I was so depressed. They all passed away in 2020 (not from Covid). Now, 3 years later I still think about them everyday day and cry about them multiple times a week.

Before they passed away, I was definitely low on serotonin and possibly needed an ssri back then. Soon after they passed away I also split up with my boyfriend. After that I was so depressed everyday that I started taking ssri medication.

I don’t know if I just have a serotonin problem, depression, or if I’m experiencing complicated grief, or if this is regular grief.

Has anyone had an experience similar to mine? How did you feel? What helped?

DogMan · 61-69, M

It sounds cliché, but you have to "let go" and move on. This guy in the picture was
my constant companion for 14 years. I was crushed when I had to let him go.
I sobbed off and on for a couple weeks, I am teary eyed now just typing about
him, and he passed 10 years ago. But I never dwell on things that upset me,
there are too many good things to think about that make me happy.

It's all up to us, what we think about, and dwell upon. Think good thoughts
all day, every day. Do not dwell in misery, you only hurt yourself.