I'm not quite sure why but in the summer I'm always depressed and anxious. Anyone else feel like this?

Ever since I was a teenager, I would always fear my own mortality. Summer makes me reflect on my life and worry about what i missed out on, what i never got to experience, what i could've done differently in my life.

Now as an adult, i still feel this way. Even with a good job, a roof over my head, nothing i do helps with this feeling of impending doom i feel. I fear that tomorrow could be my last day, even when i know im perfectly healthy.

I make sure the doors are shut and the windows as well. Im not a huge fan of open windows, which is why i prefer to use an AC unit.

Maybe i am just crazy. But even when i go on a trip, read a book, listen to the radio or watch TV, after those activities are done i lie in bed with all of this anxiety running through my head.

But in the spring fall and winter I feel fine and sleep with no problems. I dont feel this way at all in those months. In the winter, i can go out and shovel at 2 AM and not be afraid. But in the summer, i just cant do it for some reason. I always worry for no reason at all.