I'm not quite sure why but in the summer I'm always depressed and anxious. Anyone else feel like this?

Ever since I was a teenager, I would always fear my own mortality. Summer makes me reflect on my life and worry about what i missed out on, what i never got to experience, what i could've done differently in my life.

Now as an adult, i still feel this way. Even with a good job, a roof over my head, nothing i do helps with this feeling of impending doom i feel. I fear that tomorrow could be my last day, even when i know im perfectly healthy.

I make sure the doors are shut and the windows as well. Im not a huge fan of open windows, which is why i prefer to use an AC unit.

Maybe i am just crazy. But even when i go on a trip, read a book, listen to the radio or watch TV, after those activities are done i lie in bed with all of this anxiety running through my head.

But in the spring fall and winter I feel fine and sleep with no problems. I dont feel this way at all in those months. In the winter, i can go out and shovel at 2 AM and not be afraid. But in the summer, i just cant do it for some reason. I always worry for no reason at all.

riseofthemachine · 41-45, M

Hello my friend .
What happens in the summer why I think your like that is cause your mind is in the dark , that's why you prefer winter and spring fall because your mind is the dark and why you get that way in the summer is that bright nights and long days when your in the dark the mind can't handle the light . It's a biological clock in your body that's wrong so you can't handle the light .
That's where the anxiety comes from cause it's scary to come into the light in your mind .
Your mind will get very fuzzy when the summer comes and your the worst part of it all is that your trying to understand it when you shouldn't