I Hate Having Anxiety

A Constant Battle

Some days are way worse than others I always fear the unknown some mornings I wake up with my heart beating out of my chest. Awaiting the moment when I loose all control. The memories flood in and all hope is gone. Here lately it's been more of these days it's going through the motions of just trying to hold yourself together and praying you could be normal for just a moment. Never ending thoughts that go through your mind and just consume your whole being. Trying to explain your quietness to the one's around you. Constantly being judged for something you have no control over. It's a prison and there is no escaping it. You tell yourself to close your eyes and just breath any given moment it will happen you will fall into the abyss and you'll never return. It's hard to explain and harder to try and fake it till you make it. Is their anyone out there that feels the same as you do? It's a Battle I feel like I'm loosing.