I've come to the conclusion I'm absolutely done for.

Lease is up soon, no money at all for another cheaper place or moving. No money for rent this month. Very low gas, interviews far and few in between everything is drying up. I'm just going to pack up what I can stash it into my car and bounce before rent is due. Stinks because the car isn't very big but it's all I can really do right now. It's this or offing myself which kind of failed a few nights ago driving in the snow super tired where I almost hit a lane divider. Shouldn't have swerved looking back at it now.

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SleepingWithGhosts · 46-50, M

Let me tell you something my friend. In 2023, I did almost die for real. I had a bad mitral valve that needed to be replaced in my heart, and I was in congestive heart failure. I was only 45 years old and they just told me about a birth defect that was potentially going to kill me if I didn't get it replaced. My open-heart surgery to replace my valve gave me a fifty fifty chance of survival. But I did it. I went through with it because I wanted to live. Then, two months after my surgery, a blood clot went from my heart to my brain which caused me to have a stroke. I have a hard time memorizing numbers and dates and such still today, but I survived because I wanted to live. There are so many things out there worth living for, much more than money or a job. You can always find those. Never give up hope. Fight, my friend, fight for what you want in live. And your life means something.