Struggling because I'm agnostic

My dad is in hospice and it's not far away now that he will probably pass😕 It's heart wrenching seeing him miserable, and now it's affecting his mind and cognitive abilities. Yet I hope for any amount of time for him to last a bit more

But I'm really struggling trying to accept his nearing passing. I used to be religious growing up but about a decade ago I became agnostic. I wish I could truly feel his soul is going to a Paradise and Heaven. I think I wouldn't feel as frightened. But I don't know what will happen, I feel angst and helpless on him leaving me and Earth. Have you ever felt this???

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kodiac · 22-25, M

Just want to pass along my experience. I had a i guess you'd call it near death experience, i had a massive seizure and lost consciousness but i was still aware, i was fighting with everything i had, i believed i was dying and they told me they had to shock my heart. I remember thinking no hold on fight ! But as the seizure kept building i finally just let go stopped fighting. It's hard to put into words ,a feeling of uphoria washed over me , like a huge relief ,like some truth was being revealed, a voice said it's about time this is what you've been waiting for ,to be honest it felt like i was being born not dying. I'm not explaining it very well but i now believe there is something more and we mistakenly hang onto this life ,this world . I know this probably won't help and there was no bright light or angels but even though my heart stopped i was fully aware the whole time

Baybreeze · 41-45, F

@kodiac Wow what an experience to go through. So glad you were ok. Thank you for sharing it. 🪻