Struggling because I'm agnostic

My dad is in hospice and it's not far away now that he will probably pass😕 It's heart wrenching seeing him miserable, and now it's affecting his mind and cognitive abilities. Yet I hope for any amount of time for him to last a bit more

But I'm really struggling trying to accept his nearing passing. I used to be religious growing up but about a decade ago I became agnostic. I wish I could truly feel his soul is going to a Paradise and Heaven. I think I wouldn't feel as frightened. But I don't know what will happen, I feel angst and helpless on him leaving me and Earth. Have you ever felt this???

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PiecingBabyFaceTogether · 31-35, M

I have felt this before yes and it's changed me... I was exactly like you 12 years Agnostic but my last health ordeal (October and November 2025) made me rethink my entire existence. I have my disability and already weak respiratory system. When I had pneumonia it nearly killed me more than once it involved late nights hospital runs and 2 miserable months in bed 24/7 on my breathing device. Then after a mucus suction session I lost swallowing for 2 weeks. I used to cry because I wasn't ready to die and devastate my family and I wanted a chance to see my little sister who lives abroad again.

I don't know but I felt that God was there for me and wanted to give me a chance to return to him which is something I never thought I would ever return to!

Do you reply to pms?

Baybreeze · 41-45, F

@PiecingBabyFaceTogether I'm sorry for all you've experienced..you are a warrior and that's simply fact. 🌼 Yes I do reply.

PiecingBabyFaceTogether · 31-35, M

@Baybreeze Thank you for your words ❤