I think I understand the problem I had with the guy I broke up with recently.

Remember how I said I couldn't handle being with him due to being disabled and a few other things? Well I think I ended things because he was a mirror to me. He was someone who embraced who he was while I run and hide from it. I didn't like seeing someone like me thriving and being so open and honest about who he was. I've always been like that. I'll see someone like me and will absolutely trash them while internally thinking they are brave but I want to blend in so I trash them instead. So instead of giving him a fair shot I pushed him away and didn't put my heart into it much to even truly try to give him a fair shot. AHHHH why am I like this?

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AngelUnforgiven · 51-55, F

If you know what the problem is why not correct it? Work on it and fix it! Unless you like being miserable and alone. My Soulmate is my mirror he called me the female version of him. So i can relate we bump heads because we are so much alike.

FutureIdol · 31-35, M

@AngelUnforgiven There are many problems. Think of it like several small fires becoming one huge inferno. I have issues with an avoidant attatchment style and I have internalized phobias about things and struggle with a lot if image issues. There's just a ton under the surface.

AngelUnforgiven · 51-55, F

@FutureIdol then you need therapy or professional help. You need to work through your issues so that you can have a normal relationship. Do whatever it takes.

FutureIdol · 31-35, M

@AngelUnforgiven I pity whatever therapist gets me they'll probably need therapy after a session with me.

GoFish ·

A coward? Maybe explain yourself to him? Idk if you wish to reconcile that is..

FutureIdol · 31-35, M

@GoFish Well at first we were just going to be friends until he came back later and told me he wasn't able to do that. He said it's hard for him to make that switch from dating me to just being friends and he wished me luck. I've not heard from him since. I think I'm just going to let it go.

GoFish ·

@FutureIdol ok

LadyGrace · 80-89

@FutureIdol
Well there you are, right there. He settled it for you. He's not interested in getting emotionally attached. But could that be, because you pushed him away? Sounds like you ran him off. It seems you may be struggling with self-sabotaging. Do you think it might be better to heal yourself, before trying to find another relationship? You seem conflicted and need help with self image and self confidence. I think I would rather go to counseling, before moving on, knowing you still have baggage and could hurt others. That's just me.

Royricky09

Dude you are a man.... Act like one.

ItsMeMorgue · 46-50, F

Good. He deserves better.

FutureIdol · 31-35, M

@ItsMeMorgue Probably

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