I think I understand the problem I had with the guy I broke up with recently.

Remember how I said I couldn't handle being with him due to being disabled and a few other things? Well I think I ended things because he was a mirror to me. He was someone who embraced who he was while I run and hide from it. I didn't like seeing someone like me thriving and being so open and honest about who he was. I've always been like that. I'll see someone like me and will absolutely trash them while internally thinking they are brave but I want to blend in so I trash them instead. So instead of giving him a fair shot I pushed him away and didn't put my heart into it much to even truly try to give him a fair shot. AHHHH why am I like this?