I'm catastrophising over my life this morning

It feels messy, the house feels messy too. It needs redecorating and I have been trying to find the motivation for such a big job. The thought of meeting new people and bringing any of them home is terrifying right now. The fear spirals into thinking "Who would want this?" who would want to live a life where they end up helping me with silly little things that most people just seem to be able to do without a struggle.

I have a lot to give, but I am not an easy person to live with, I should know, I do it every day.

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Notladylike

You have lots to offer the house doesn’t matter. Can you get out for a bit today?

Kuronekko · 41-45, F

@Notladylike I'm gonna take the dogs out in a bit, and probably gonna anxiety clean later lol

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Kuronekko · 41-45, F

@foldedunfolding It's neurodivergence and the subsequent anxiety and paralysis that comes with it. I can sort all day and then the stuff will sit there for months waiting to be taken to it's respective places.

Some days/weeks I will have all the energy in the world for this stuff and I will do it until burn out because I can't guarantee that the me that wakes up tomorrow is going to be able to handle anything at all.

My house is at best, a tidy mess. Anything extra, like decorating, I just struggle to get around to having already struggled to get the essentials done.

It's not that I don't KNOW how to do this stuff a all, it's that I can't convince my paralysed brain to play ball.

Also I wouldn't exactly I got rid of that guy, it was never really a reality.

foldedunfolding · 41-45, F

@Kuronekko i totally get it..i also live with my neurodivergent best friend, and witness how he struggles.

Jimbo7 · M

One room at a time babe

MartinTheFirst · 26-30, M

Beat the fear by doing a little bit of work today, motivation be damned

Ferise1 · 46-50, M

My house is disgusting. I can’t invite anybody here.

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