Is it just me? Probably? I knew it...

Feeling so aware that I don't feel anything, a state I fall into often. Just the other day I thought, is this disassociation? Feeling outside yourself, like a dream. If so it's been happening since forever. Being disconnected must have some benefit. Sometimes I feel so connected my body has no other option than to factory reset. Does that make sense? If not, blame the daiquiri.

Top | New | Old

riseofthemachine · 41-45, M

Well I'm telling you what you explained there your on the right track .
Usually when your connected to your body there's 2 emotions that you feel ' Fear and Love "
When your not connected to your body there's a lot of negative emotions that you feel ( Despair , Loneliness, Empty , Terror , etc so what you explained your on the right track .
Loads of people would like to get where your at

Endlessvortex578 · 22-25, M

I def deal with some thing similiar called depersonalization, been dealing with this issue since I was a teenager. It comes and goes but now through time and experience I've learned how to manage it, even if I feel it coming on, I can kinda reset myself..still sucks though..My depersonalization/derealization was first triggered smoking marijuana actually. That was my first experience, I had a bad high and from then I started getting it even without weed, a lot of times just high stress for a built up duration of time would trigger it and it's kinda been that way since..Anyways I know what you're going through, my sympathies

riseofthemachine · 41-45, M

@Endlessvortex578 I smoked weed for years and I ended up getting pyschosis from it when I was 21 to 24 and up to this I done know what took me out of that state of mind cause I was heading for suicide back then .
That was my mentality back then over smoking weed but the other side of it was that loved what it done for me when it was working out .
It was the best feeling I ever got ,but I done the pig with it , smoking it everyday .
I didn't smoke it for 20 years and it still has an affect over it cause I have a huge fear that if I went back smoking it I'd go back into a psychosis and take my life

JestAJester · 31-35, M

Nope. Ive been feeling this way for years. Dont care about anything. My sis just had her first baby and i dont care. My friends all left me and I dont care. Im trying to fix it i just dont know how. Picking up hobbies, eating healthier, working out, etc. It sort of helps. Let me know if you figure it out.

Silemhaff · 31-35, M

It's so rare, i think..
Maybe you can develop.. like why did it happen, in the first place?
That way we can give a better feedback or help you more

Lackwittyname · M

I think I have had that feeling, but not very often.

View 3 more replies »

Lackwittyname · M

@XcookiexbakerX Well what is normal really? I think there are many definitions of normal, what one person is going to look down upon and call bad, another person is going to relate to and embrace. Really look at the world today and all of the differing opinions and hate that people have just because something is different or some other way is preferred.

I think for you, by just having the feelings and questioning things that is normal and means you care. Also having looked at your profile, you enjoy writing poetry and as a fellow creative type I can relate that sometimes life, the world, just that day or hour can be a bit much.

XcookiexbakerX · 31-35, F

@Lackwittyname normal in being abnormal lol because we're all a little strange, a little damaged, or so I like to think. Another coping mechanism of mine! I question things a lot and maybe that's my problem because the simple answer doesn't satisfy me. There's always more under that simple answer and that's what I struggle with, the brutal honesty of the universe. Ah ok I'm lit, rant over.

Lackwittyname · M

@XcookiexbakerX Yes, normal being abnormal, or put another way just accepting who you are and why you think the way you do. Normal is essentially defined as what is most common, what is socially accepted. But who has set those parameters? I see you live in the US, as do I, essentially normal has been defined by a Christian sensibility that many of us do not really accept, that can be to constricting, and look at how many of those people cheat and lie against what they preach.

There is nothing wrong with questioning things and wanting a deeper answer, I think that is healthier than just taking the answer provided and not critically thinking about it. This all said, over the years (and I have about 20 on you according to you age listed) I have stopped worrying about a deeper answer to life and the universe. It is all a grand mystery, a lot of which we project our thoughts into to give it a deeper meaning, to give us a meaning.

So yes, you seem like a perfectly normal person wading through the tribulations of existence.

Add a comment...