Is it just me? Probably? I knew it...

Feeling so aware that I don't feel anything, a state I fall into often. Just the other day I thought, is this disassociation? Feeling outside yourself, like a dream. If so it's been happening since forever. Being disconnected must have some benefit. Sometimes I feel so connected my body has no other option than to factory reset. Does that make sense? If not, blame the daiquiri.

This page is a permanent link to the reply below and its nested replies. See all post replies »

Endlessvortex578 · 22-25, M

I def deal with some thing similiar called depersonalization, been dealing with this issue since I was a teenager. It comes and goes but now through time and experience I've learned how to manage it, even if I feel it coming on, I can kinda reset myself..still sucks though..My depersonalization/derealization was first triggered smoking marijuana actually. That was my first experience, I had a bad high and from then I started getting it even without weed, a lot of times just high stress for a built up duration of time would trigger it and it's kinda been that way since..Anyways I know what you're going through, my sympathies

riseofthemachine · 41-45, M

@Endlessvortex578 I smoked weed for years and I ended up getting pyschosis from it when I was 21 to 24 and up to this I done know what took me out of that state of mind cause I was heading for suicide back then .
That was my mentality back then over smoking weed but the other side of it was that loved what it done for me when it was working out .
It was the best feeling I ever got ,but I done the pig with it , smoking it everyday .
I didn't smoke it for 20 years and it still has an affect over it cause I have a huge fear that if I went back smoking it I'd go back into a psychosis and take my life