If you experienced abuse....

Or had someone with mental illness in your family or life that affected you greatly..did you start to IDENTIFY with The entire experience?( Feel tainted, broken or inhuman? )As if you as an entity was bad, and inhuman? I've been trying to overcome this horrible identity but the abuse was constant and severe, for years. It remains in my subconscious, saying "You are always subpar , and now BECAUSE of this awful experience, you are unwhole, abnormal etc." I have PTSD as a result so I feel less than others. They can date and travel etc and I get super hyper vigilant about either. Two wonderful parts of life, feel unattainable.
Can anyone feel this as well?

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Cigarguy101 · 41-45, M

I have PTSD from the abuse I suffered as I child. Mostly food trauma, my mother mother would make me sit at the dinner table and ever time I'd have a tic or outbursts she'd hit me and take the food away. She thought I was faking and would eventually stop because I was hungry. But I couldn't control it so this went on for years. I now struggle with a eating disorder because of this

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