If you experienced abuse....

Or had someone with mental illness in your family or life that affected you greatly..did you start to IDENTIFY with The entire experience?( Feel tainted, broken or inhuman? )As if you as an entity was bad, and inhuman? I've been trying to overcome this horrible identity but the abuse was constant and severe, for years. It remains in my subconscious, saying "You are always subpar , and now BECAUSE of this awful experience, you are unwhole, abnormal etc." I have PTSD as a result so I feel less than others. They can date and travel etc and I get super hyper vigilant about either. Two wonderful parts of life, feel unattainable.
Can anyone feel this as well?

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SwampFlower · 31-35, F

It didn't become my identity but it definitely shaped my perspective in ways I've consistently had to challenge and unlearn.

Your experience was horrible and unfair but it didn't destroy you in the ways you fear. I understand the insecurities you feel, though. I hope you can learn to challenge your feelings of unworthiness and find peace. You deserve all the love.

Coralmist · 41-45, F

@SwampFlower Ty Swampflower , that means a lot. 🌷