If you experienced abuse....

Or had someone with mental illness in your family or life that affected you greatly..did you start to IDENTIFY with The entire experience?( Feel tainted, broken or inhuman? )As if you as an entity was bad, and inhuman? I've been trying to overcome this horrible identity but the abuse was constant and severe, for years. It remains in my subconscious, saying "You are always subpar , and now BECAUSE of this awful experience, you are unwhole, abnormal etc." I have PTSD as a result so I feel less than others. They can date and travel etc and I get super hyper vigilant about either. Two wonderful parts of life, feel unattainable.
Can anyone feel this as well?

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candycane · 36-40, F

Yes my mom dad hated me and told me it to my face. There drugs were more important here's a poem I wrote about it

https://similarworlds.com/9052504-I-Kimmygary-Has-A-Heart-Of-Gold/648698-I-Kimmygary-Has-A-Heart-Of-Gold-Fading-Away-i

Coralmist · 41-45, F

@candycane It's heartbreaking and I'm so sorry. 😟Drug users or alcoholic, like my dad as well , cling to that only and nothing really matters to them, even their family. You have worth for being born, period. As a human being. I am also sorry they overdosed candy🌸

candycane · 36-40, F

@Coralmist i knew it was going to happen, I never had a birthday party or a holiday, and other kids were not allowed at my house