Just asking for a friend

Have you ever felt like there wasn't a single piece of yourself worth loving? Like you've desecrated every level of self respect that you might've had, and let the world eat away at you until nothing was left?

Just asking for a friend...

I don't even know how to get back to myself anymore. I feel like there's nothing left of the old me. I wish I had been stronger and protected myself better. Instead, I think a part of me wanted to be broken. I think maybe I hated myself, and that's why I let others pull me apart. I didn't value what I had.

I feel so lost now. So at the end of my rope. I feel like I just need to be alone, on an island by myself. Whenever I allow myself to interact with people I just end up getting hurt. I need some time to heal. Some time to myself.

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Busybee333 · 31-35, F

I didn't read everything until the end yet (will be back for elaboration later), but I felt like I have to tell you this right away:

If there was nothing lovable about you, you wouldn't be even born.

Just the fact that you are alive on its own is showing that just like everything on the physical plane, just like the north pole and south pole.. you have your far positive and negative extremes... balanced by you. You feel lost because you are in the middle and you feel pulled in both directions.

You can use your daily choices to lean onto the sides of you that you want to understand better.

I may add things later... but... you choose what to believe in, not your external conditions (people, environment etc). So even if the world says that you are your most negative extreme and nothing else, you have a choice to eithet be that, or pay more attention not to what they say but to listen and focus on your inner growth and see.. that you are much more complex and beyond their judgment.

You really are what you think. If you want to be a certain way, you can be that. And no one can change that unless you let them.

So forget what they think. Don't think about how to be a certain way. Just embody the way you want to be. Everything else is just small details.

I'll come back to comment on loneliness soon..