Just asking for a friend

Have you ever felt like there wasn't a single piece of yourself worth loving? Like you've desecrated every level of self respect that you might've had, and let the world eat away at you until nothing was left?

Just asking for a friend...

I don't even know how to get back to myself anymore. I feel like there's nothing left of the old me. I wish I had been stronger and protected myself better. Instead, I think a part of me wanted to be broken. I think maybe I hated myself, and that's why I let others pull me apart. I didn't value what I had.

I feel so lost now. So at the end of my rope. I feel like I just need to be alone, on an island by myself. Whenever I allow myself to interact with people I just end up getting hurt. I need some time to heal. Some time to myself.