I know it’s super edgy but…

I really relax by watching gore. Even my therapist has said it’s a mental problem.
I think I’m just really desensitized to it because I remember my dad putting on gore movies and videos for me as young as 3. It was the norm for me to watch horror and gore movies with him as bonding.
I honestly thought it was normal and wasn’t a problem at all until I began asking people around me if it also relaxes them or if they began watching it that young ad well.
I don’t think it’s a problem right? I mean I come home from work, lie down in bed to go to sleep and I’m either watching shock videos or some documentaries about really gruesome murders.