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So for the past 2+ months (I think it's two months, but it may have been longer and I just don't remember) I've been incredibly withdrawn, because I've been struggling with suicidal depression so a magnitude which has left be barely able to function at any level beyond the absolute minimum. I'm not a risk to myself, so please don't worry. I think I'm coming out the other side right now - which I said a little while ago, but that turned out to be a bubble, and today this time felt like a bubble that had burst too. I still feel like absolute shit, but I can feel things other than a desire to be dead now so hopefully it'll stick.

I still feel like a burden and like I'm just in the way of everyone else's lives and taking up space and empty, but it's not as all-consuming as it was which is definitely a step up.

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assemblingaknob · 26-30, F

Have you considered therapy? I know that sounds like a weird question. But I understand your situation, and I see that you need a rewiring of your thinking process. And that's okay. Our lives have impacted us in different ways. And many times it requires a trained coach to help us detangle the mess inside our heads. Especially the way we think about ourselves. It majorly impacts the way we present ourselves.
I'm trying to work on it too.

KiwiDan · 31-35, M

@assemblingaknob I've tried it before, and unfortunately it's 1) way more expensive than I can afford, and 2) something I've had extremely limited luck with in the past.