This post is going to get all kinds of flags

So for the past 2+ months (I think it's two months, but it may have been longer and I just don't remember) I've been incredibly withdrawn, because I've been struggling with suicidal depression so a magnitude which has left be barely able to function at any level beyond the absolute minimum. I'm not a risk to myself, so please don't worry. I think I'm coming out the other side right now - which I said a little while ago, but that turned out to be a bubble, and today this time felt like a bubble that had burst too. I still feel like absolute shit, but I can feel things other than a desire to be dead now so hopefully it'll stick.

I still feel like a burden and like I'm just in the way of everyone else's lives and taking up space and empty, but it's not as all-consuming as it was which is definitely a step up.