Sometimes I feel that I'm not interesting enough
It's been a whole semester and I'm struggling with so many thoughts. I made a few friends in class but I have this fear that maybe they are only being nice to me for the sake of making connections with other people or just general networking for career opportunities.
Sure they come by my desk to chat sometimes during school hours, sometimes even eat lunch together and it has been pleasant, but then outside of school, it just goes back to being lonely again.
I try my best to ask questions and be interested in what they say but I feel as if they don't reciprocate the effort as much. But maybe that's just an unhealthy mindest to have too much expectations for some persons.
I sometimes message them online after school sending them videos or news about things that we have in common, but alot of the times I'm left on read or just on delivered. The people I want to talk to online usually just wants to ask about school matters but then after I answer their questions, that's the end of the conversation. I'm probably just overthinking things but I can't help but feel like I'm only good enough to be approached if they have something they need.
To be fair though, the course I'm taking is pretty isolating and requires alot of free time to work on projects, together with my other friends being in different courses with conflicting schedules. But I haven't even been invited to hang out for a really long time and it's all been taking a toll on my mental health that I think I'm experiencing burn out.
Sure they come by my desk to chat sometimes during school hours, sometimes even eat lunch together and it has been pleasant, but then outside of school, it just goes back to being lonely again.
I try my best to ask questions and be interested in what they say but I feel as if they don't reciprocate the effort as much. But maybe that's just an unhealthy mindest to have too much expectations for some persons.
I sometimes message them online after school sending them videos or news about things that we have in common, but alot of the times I'm left on read or just on delivered. The people I want to talk to online usually just wants to ask about school matters but then after I answer their questions, that's the end of the conversation. I'm probably just overthinking things but I can't help but feel like I'm only good enough to be approached if they have something they need.
To be fair though, the course I'm taking is pretty isolating and requires alot of free time to work on projects, together with my other friends being in different courses with conflicting schedules. But I haven't even been invited to hang out for a really long time and it's all been taking a toll on my mental health that I think I'm experiencing burn out.
