I'm really struggling tonight

I have a lot of weight on my shoulders and no one to lean on. I take care of my family, and when I'm in need, when I have emotions, when I break. That's when I'm reminded how alone I am. I'm not allowed to be sick, I'm not allowed to cry. I'm not allowed to be tired. Because if I do I'm not the faithful servant fulfilling my duties. I'm human, and that's not allowed.