I'm really struggling tonight

Yes that sure sounds one-sided. I think maybe someone there doesn't understand how to treat people. Communication is key but not always easy, as you know. I completely understand. This is not love, this is control. Some people don't know the difference. When I was in my abusive marriage, I always felt like I was owned and operated, like a business partner, but not a friend or person with needs like everyone else. And I'm not talking sexual needs. It sounds like you are facing people that are emotionally unavailable. And the reason you feel so lousy is because the Lord is telling you that something needs to change; something in your life is not working and needs taken care of. You will have to pray for his guidance in the best way to handle this. Do nothing hastily. If you cannot even communicate with your partner and talk things out, I'm sorry to say that's not much of a relationship and so you will need to reestablish communication and sit down and talk about this. I know it won't be easy but ask the Lord for help and he will guide you and give you wisdom and what to do. In how to handle this. I will be praying for you and if you need to talk, feel free to pm me. Lots of hugs. And don't forget, you couldn't be in better hands, nor have better leadership, than to turn to the wisdom of the Lord. 🌹