Why I'm not a fan of organized religion

Following a religion requires having holidays, having certain rites of passage and observing certain rules & rituals about things. Often also attending some form of mass religious ceremony.

I like my everyday routine, and hate the change and bustle holidays bring. I don't like that holidays require either forced socialization, gift giving, lots of cooking and clean up, decorating, etc. I can't really say as an adult that there is any holiday I enjoy. I don't even enjoy celebrating birthdays.

Because of my disabilities jumping through all the various hoops for rites of passage is just too difficult and annoying for me. I don't enjoy attending religious ceremony because to me it takes away from my individual connection with the divine and makes it more impersonal, with certain rehearsed chants or readings or songs. Also due to my disabilities it is sometimes hard for me to regularly attend such things. They are also frequently boring.

In addition I do not always like the rules and rituals one has to adhere to given a certain religion because they do not always make sense to me or seem stifling or impossible to follow given my disabilities.

I prefer to go my own way when it comes to spirituality due to these things.