An re-encounter with Losing my religion

The good old South way for sure. I'm losing my religion; I'm losing my grip on reality. It's my birthday soon and I'll be yet another year more than 50. I hate my life. Have gotten a degree in history but can't afford a master as yet. Love to study theology but that's basically been denied by the powers that be on earth. My love life is a real mess too. There's this ghost from the past that comes to haunt me almost daily. Every day at my workplace I need to defend why I've been there already for more than a quarter of a century, let along that I get the respect and understanding for my points of view each time that I like to voice them. Even at the weekly meetings of my local Bible group I need to defend the basic understandings of my own Church against the extremes inside Christianity. I don't need this all, so I'm losing my religion yet again. Watched a terrific recent war movie today called Narvic, but that wasn't really an uplifting story either. Once again it wasn't. Why is it always like this these days? Why am I like this? Why can't people see me? Why aren't there more of us walking the right path towards better lands ahead? Why can no-one understand anymore that I'm doing the job of librarian for my community's sake, and why can't my fellow christians see that a true christian puts the Gospel across by daily example only and not by Bible-bashing people? Society isn't right so do your thing within. Why is everyone talking about the Second Coming and don't understand even the basics of the First? I'm fed up with it all. There's no more strenght in me except from deep inside in me, from the past, from my grandparents, and I wonder right now if that will last the course. When this song was first brought out I was still young and brave though; I was in the army and it was a beautiful summer. Now there's old age and it's a dreadful winter with no hope for more warmth nor sunlight ahead. It's how I'm feeling now. Loosing my religion indeed

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