I Have Lost Faith In People

Do you know what's the saddest thing? The greatest tragedy? When i finally realized that nobody cares, and that my life is worthless, I met someone, a few months ago. Someone who made me doubt that belief. That person made me feel that, maybe for the first time, there exists someone in this world who would miss me if I ever disappeared. That there is someone who would want my friendship, and return it in kind. Someone who could see past my shell, past the darkness.
I believed, that this life was worth the struggle.
And she, she never cared about me to begin with. I was no friend of hers. Just another name on the list, soon to be forgotten.
I don't know what hurts me more. That that I got fooled into believing a lie, or that I still try to believe in it, even after I learned the truth.