I Have Lost Faith In People

Do you know what's the saddest thing? The greatest tragedy? When i finally realized that nobody cares, and that my life is worthless, I met someone, a few months ago. Someone who made me doubt that belief. That person made me feel that, maybe for the first time, there exists someone in this world who would miss me if I ever disappeared. That there is someone who would want my friendship, and return it in kind. Someone who could see past my shell, past the darkness.
I believed, that this life was worth the struggle.
And she, she never cared about me to begin with. I was no friend of hers. Just another name on the list, soon to be forgotten.
I don't know what hurts me more. That that I got fooled into believing a lie, or that I still try to believe in it, even after I learned the truth.

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ArnoldJRimmer

have never seen you as worthless. your writing shows one whos ive always been impressed by you...your thoughts run deep. you try even in your own pain to reach out to help others. that to me is the best of human nature, the ability to care for others even when we doubt our own value. we always seem to run into those who we believed we were important to....but find that we were not as far on the list as we believed. in truth its not always that the person slights us deliberately but that as we feel more for others we spread ourselves thin. we have less to give all. some can spread further than others and its part of their makeup and not a calculated insult.

but enough of defending them. ive seen you as a genuine worthwhile human. you dont write as much as some but what you do write is always worthy of consideration. i see you as one of the few reasons i even would stay on this site. you would be missed if you disappeared.

themanoflegends · 31-35, M

It's just that I no longer see the point in trying to reach out to people. I'll keep trying to, God knows I will, but I just cannot seem to see the point of it all. It doesn't matter how hard I reach out to others, when there is never a hand reaching back to me.

nicola2376

Keep talking ... Keep sharing

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