Blocked Facebook section was like a graveyard of zombies

Yesterday I was thinking about a girl I dated 15 years ago. We dated for 4 years. I don't miss her at all, she was such an obnoxious person, I was simply curious to see what she looks like now. Just to see if she looks different than when I dated her. She's had 2 kids since we broke up so I figured she must look at least a little different now. I couldn't find her Facebook page so I went to the photos of a mutual friend and found photos she was tagged in but her name wasn't hyperlinked so I wasn't sure if she deleted her Facebook or if I blocked her..

So I went to the blocked users list on my Facebook account which has at least 150 people on it (I'm a habitual blocker on social media) and trying to find her name in this never ending Santa's list of despicable human beings made me feel so disgusted. Within a matter of 30 seconds I literally felt my body temperature rising and I almost broke a sweat! I felt like was in a dark space with rotten corpses in every direction and no matter where I turned to escape, I would be stepping in a puddle of rotten putrid filth, like liquid hot garbage. I felt like I was unintentionally summoning the undead from their graves. I even stumbled upon other women that I've dated and blocked that I wasn't even thinking about. After about 2 minutes of not being able to find my ex's name I GTFO of there and vowed to never return to that blocked users list E V E R A G A I N

I will never give a damn about what that ex, or any ex for that matter, looks like for the rest of my days. They're in the past and that's where they will stay for the rest of eternity.