Jeremy must have preordered some snacks for the game today to feed an entire family. They got dropped off around 5:30.
I didn't think much about it at first as I unloaded the bags… chips, cheese, sausage, corn puffs. Then I pulled this out of the bag. And I just stood there in the kitchen holding it, completely falling apart. I couldn't stop crying. It's strange how the smallest things can hurt the most. Things that would normally mean absolutely nothing suddenly carry the weight of everything you've lost. Just another reminder that he was here. That he was planning for today. That he had no idea he wouldn't be here to enjoy the game with us. 💔
@Cigarguys Never having been in a situation such as this all I can offer is that one reason it hurts so much is because Jeremy brought a whole heap of joy to your life. Joy that might have been nonexistent in your life up to the moment you two went on your first date. People say the pain lessens over time and we can only hope that is true.
Jeremy wanted so much to live and enjoy life at your sides. At the same time, if someone had asked him, do you want to plan even more surprises for them that will be there for them even after you are gone, I'll bet you anything that he would have said yes to as many as he could. More "I love you's."
It is a painful reminder of loss, but it’s also a shining reminder of love and thoughtfulness. Eventually, as the devastating pain begins to fade, the memories of the good help you continue. S’mores are sort of a summary of his love for his family.
@Cigarguys It does, or many of us wouldn’t still be walking around. For a while, you don’t think about much else. It does hit hard. For a while. And there are times even much later when it hits hard.
But it does get easier. Gradually. And nobody who loved you would want you to grieve forever. Just for now.
Little things like that will keep happening for the near future. Enjoy the treats and know that he is there in spirit with you. 😊💝💝💝 Hopefully it will make everyone feel a little better.
