Does it really get better or worst?

I wonder what victims of abuse did once they got away .my abusive ex will be getting out in a year and I’m a bit nervous because I know I will always be paying attention, having anxiety everywhere I go .I feel like ny bd will try to get revenge so I know from now on out , I have to carry something on me, I would rather leave ny but I’m waiting trying to research if I should move a city over but what worries is me is that people can find out where u live just by researching your name to google and it will give an address as well, i even thought of changing my name and go to a gun state, I know these things take time but I wanna be readying. It’s so much on my mind

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riseofthemachine · 41-45, M Best Comment

I went threw a lot in my life .
My experience is if you run you'll run for the rest of your life , and going to different states like when i had anxiety before and was thinking of moving to a different country (the other side of the world i went) and a friend of mine said i wasn't ready and i ignored him and he said to me if you move you also bring your head with you , so the problem be there as well .
He was right . I came back where im from after 4 days and got a nervous breakdown over where i went - lost 3500 grand over there (the money didn't bother me) but the after shock of it landed me in a pysche ward for 6 weeks .

moongoddessx · 26-30, F

@riseofthemachine yes iv thought of that, I’m so sorry for your situation and thank you for sharing your experience, I hate that ppl have to go through this issue with phycotic ppl hurting us and stalking us. I hope you are in a better state of mind