No time for reflection.

I think if I was a younger guy feeling the way I do I think I would have to recognise that my mental health isn’t great. I think it fair to say I haven’t adapted to civilian life as well as I had hoped. As a result I’m carrying around things that other people might address through medication or something else.

But at this time of my life there’s no pause long enough to finish that thought. My wife and kids, my sister and her two disabled children are all counting on me to earn, to support, to show up and function.

I don’t have the luxury of time to think about what’s happening. I’m not carrying on to be matcho, I’m carrying on because it’s necessary. Too many people are counting on me to do what I do. My family are going through a tough time, so I can’t stop and think. I need to get things done.

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Ozymandiaz

You should try counselling. Its not just talking about it, although that helps. It also helps build strategies that will help control that feeling of being overwhelmed.It is worth it.

WintaTheAngle · 41-45, M

@Ozymandiaz You’re absolutely right, but between a 45 hour week, school runs and trips to the hospital it’s a mission to get that time.

OlderSometimesWiser · F

I get that but please don’t neglect your health to the point where you can no longer show up. A healthier you will be beneficial to all of them.

WintaTheAngle · 41-45, M

@OlderSometimesWiser That’s kind but there’s nothing in reserve for me to take that time out.

There was a wartime phrase put on the records of personnel who couldn’t or wouldn’t perform. LMF. Lacking Moral Fibre. Right or wrong I sometimes use this to chide myself into working harder. One day I’ll have an opportunity to rest and straighten things out.

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