My Birthday
Some of my spouses family after 11 years never cared to know when my birthday was ( totally pathetic ) , some people forgot , but for the most part it was quiet which i don’t mind since most of my life it hasn’t been quiet My step son didn’t bother either texting me and my step daughter just wants me to pay for her baby shower , so of course she remembered .. altho most of my life with her dad and her in it has been shitty.
My mom used to make me really cool 3 tier cakes decorated with halloween stuff. That was the best.
For my side of the family , both my aunts totally could have either texted or called but they didn’t. My 6 cousins obviously don’t care enough about me to text me. I’ve always been good to them. I’m not sure what i really ever done to deserve this. I never not acknowledge someone’s birthday. F N selfish people … F N does piss me off secretively but i didn’t let it bother me because i spent a whole previous day fuming over my step daughter telling me she didn’t have time to see me and ignoring me.
My husband is away on business.
My father in law took me out to dinner.
My childhood friend remembered
I disabled weeks ago the facebook setting for birthdays. It’s better this way. Every year i’m always sad that i expected so and so to post for my birthday , such as my best friends and k would always seem to cry , this year felt great. No one bothered and that just means i know who not to spend too much time and energy on.
I even told someone here the day before and they didn’t even remember .
My boss told the whole group at work and some people didn’t bother … And no they are not religious , they just don’t care to be considerate and decent.
Life is lonely
Oh crap did i mention , by blood i have two older boy siblings , but we don’t talk
My dad passed 2019
Mom passed 2020
So .. looking from the outside , it seems like my life is crappy but it’s not. i crave to be alone.
My mom used to make me really cool 3 tier cakes decorated with halloween stuff. That was the best.
For my side of the family , both my aunts totally could have either texted or called but they didn’t. My 6 cousins obviously don’t care enough about me to text me. I’ve always been good to them. I’m not sure what i really ever done to deserve this. I never not acknowledge someone’s birthday. F N selfish people … F N does piss me off secretively but i didn’t let it bother me because i spent a whole previous day fuming over my step daughter telling me she didn’t have time to see me and ignoring me.
My husband is away on business.
My father in law took me out to dinner.
My childhood friend remembered
I disabled weeks ago the facebook setting for birthdays. It’s better this way. Every year i’m always sad that i expected so and so to post for my birthday , such as my best friends and k would always seem to cry , this year felt great. No one bothered and that just means i know who not to spend too much time and energy on.
I even told someone here the day before and they didn’t even remember .
My boss told the whole group at work and some people didn’t bother … And no they are not religious , they just don’t care to be considerate and decent.
Life is lonely
Oh crap did i mention , by blood i have two older boy siblings , but we don’t talk
My dad passed 2019
Mom passed 2020
So .. looking from the outside , it seems like my life is crappy but it’s not. i crave to be alone.
