I Am Lonely

I used to be able to separate being alone and being lonely. Lately though (like within the last year), I no longer am able to make that distinction. I seem to be stuck in a psychological prison of self-confinement. The door to the cell isn't even locked, but I act like it is. And, what is most troubling is even knowing all this, I remain in self-imposed isolation. I have had some success in reaching out to others and "connecting," but only in remedial ways. If I was 7 years old and first leaning social skills, it COULD be a reason to celebrate victory. But, now even though it is success, it only makes me feel pathetic.

Your statement, "...it gets me into trouble," is what prompted me to reply. I didn't really think I was getting myself into "trouble," but your perspective makes me realize I have strategically placed myself in a vulnerable position.

I am sorry you feel lonely, Michele.

You could try to focus on what you need and what you want in order for you to not feel lonely. Once you have your focus, try to achieve it by finding what you want and need. Now that the internet have linked most of the world into one, I believe you should be able to find what you need and want. It could be another lonely soul out there waiting for someone like you to chat with or to venture into other activities together.

Hang in there Michele! Hopefully soon PM will be working and you will be able to chat. I too know that loneliness may lead to depression but remember there are many people out there who would love to chat with you and help take that lonely feeling away.

just try to meet people without getting into trouble, i dont have a lot of friends myself

Thank you. Believe me i look forward to making friends here. I really miss ep and the understanding people

Thankyou for understanding. I too am in my own prison that i keep myself in. I hope youre ok