Woke up miserable

I went through years like that. Eventually spoke to my doctor and went on antidepressants.
They worked for me, after trying several brands.
What they do is clear the mind of the constant merry go round of negativity, allowing the mind to stop wrestling with itself.
Please talk to your doctor, he/she can help.

Lotta days. And sometimes i just start crying for no reason.

Once in a while I will wake and remember some significant event that makes me cry. But as time marches on those events are receding and the occasions when I wake up weeping have become progressively rarer.

If only things were that good.. 🙂