I Am Lonely

I truly have no one. I mean, I have a few friends that are supportive but there are no adults in my life that I feel I can go to for support and I really need it. I'm 20 but emotionally, I'm a little kid who is so afraid of the world and just wants affection/comfort and to be told it will be okay. I am struggling so, so much right now and two people came into my life at the beginning of the year wanting to help me because they were concerned and I got so attached. A lot has happened since then but a couple of months ago they said they were going to support me and be there through something I'm finding very difficult with at the moment - they said they wanted to make me feel better and I believed them. I had hope and became more optimistic that things may just turn out okay because I wasn't so alone anymore but I've recently found out that they've both left and are unable to come back and they never even said. They've kind of just... left me and I've been crying so much because I finally thought someone cared about me and now I know they don't and I have to go through it all by myself and I don't know if I can. And the fact I got attached to them makes it so much worse because it hurts knowing they could just walk away so easy when they're aware of how unable to cope I am, plus I got to know and become familiar with them and all I wanted was to feel cared for and now I won't see them again and it sucks. I just don't know how I will cope with no one to be there. I can't support myself because I'm literally helpless and have to depend on other people. Ugh idk. 😓