Is it stupid that I'm so damn nervous about this..?
We have two months to decide if we're moving, and now I'm literally panicking when thinking about moving out of our current safe neighborhood, because most of my city is filled with traumatic memories, and the people that caused some of them..
Like I said I looked at one apartment and found it my ex lives there.. I then looked up the second guy that raped me (he's the only one from my city), and he lives in another neighborhood that I've also looked at a few apartments at.. So now I don't want to move to either of those places..
I tried to find my "childhood friend" that latest threatened me a few years ago, and I can't find his info so I have no idea where he is🥹
Like, I know that it most likely wouldn't matter.. Time has passed, people move on, life goes on and so on, but my cptsd don't move with that timeline.. I'm still scared of these people, specially the last two.
I don't think either would hurt me now, but that don't mean I wanna be their neighbor nor wanna see them..
Idk, I think I'm just overthinking and stressing myself out..
Like I said I looked at one apartment and found it my ex lives there.. I then looked up the second guy that raped me (he's the only one from my city), and he lives in another neighborhood that I've also looked at a few apartments at.. So now I don't want to move to either of those places..
I tried to find my "childhood friend" that latest threatened me a few years ago, and I can't find his info so I have no idea where he is🥹
Like, I know that it most likely wouldn't matter.. Time has passed, people move on, life goes on and so on, but my cptsd don't move with that timeline.. I'm still scared of these people, specially the last two.
I don't think either would hurt me now, but that don't mean I wanna be their neighbor nor wanna see them..
Idk, I think I'm just overthinking and stressing myself out..
