I feel worthless

You're a wonderful person. I enjoy reading things you post, I think you have a unique and fresh perspective. You're not worthless definitely. But I can understand what you say about the flashbacks.
You know how it works? We keep on pushing forward and the frequency lessens and lessens...
But this is not your reality right now. So don't diminish your reality. Stay with yourself, sit with your worthlessness. There's a shadow you there that's craving to be seen and witnessed.
I'm sorry you have to go through this.

Perhaps go out and have a look at the full moon....
A time to let go.
The last full moon of the year, according to the Chinese. The last full moon of the heavy winter, little before the spring will be approaching again.
Talk to the moon about what you want to leave behind and not take it with you into the new seeds that will sprout in the Spring ahead...

You've expressed to me that sometimes you got caught up in mental cycles that trapped you in confusion and doubt. You've also expressed the times you did what you could to protect yourself. I'm proud of you for getting where you are today, working a job that helps other people in traumatic situations and coming home to a safe place with a husband who cares for you, as far as you've told me. You are loved and you are powerful and you are safe, Cassie. Focus on that. 🫂 Okay?

I get the "spiral of doom" thoughts often. If i catch them fast enough i will play a video game or do a puzzle, anything to re direct my screaming thoughts.
It only has to be something to grab your focus.
If i miss the start of it, i have to ride it out unfortunately.
I wish you the best.

I know a guy that can help with that.... All you have to do is get in your Bible... And you will realize NONE of this worldly stuff matters... Jesus said sell all of your possessions and follow me.., just some food for thought ❤❤❤❤❤

Are you okay?

It's better to deal with those feelings. Confront them. Let them happen and face them head on. Reminding yourself they are only feelings and also remind yourself what happened can not be undone, and that you did the best anyone could've done in that situation. And never forget you have come along way since then and those feelings will pass and life will continue in a positive direction for you. I hope this helps