Fresh outta jail, out on bail 🙏
The same night as my last post, I got arrested & booked into jail. I got pulled over for my taillights being out (my headlights were on & I had no idea my taillights weren't working). Cop saw that I had 3 warrants, one being a felony warrant, so I got put right into handcuffs & hauled off.
I always knew this could happen since I knew I had warrants. I was hoping I would have time to take care of my family & save up some money for a lawyer but life doesn't always work out the way we want it to. I thought it was already a bad day because my gf left with our baby... then I ended up in a cell that same night 🤦 so yeah... Shit could always be worse I guess.
Here's a little bit about my experience though. As soon as I went in I immediately cliqued up with the Chicanos & the kinfolk. I always love the kinfolk in jail because they're so funny & they make the whole experience feel easier. The first day, one of the older dudes looked at me & said, "you don't look like you belong in here" & I said what? Then he said, "nah I mean I've been watching you & the way you carry yourself & interact with people.. you look like you stand on business. You don't belong in a place like this". That actually meant a lot to me. He & I immediately got along. One of the OG kinfolk even talked to me for a while. He opened my eyes to a lot of different things & he had a lot of respect for me as well.
Once I got into my bunk, I was in an area full of 80 people. We just walked around hanging out, talking, exercising, & I did a lot of writing. One dude let me borrow his tablet so I watched a long parenting video & I took multiple pages of notes so I could bring it home with me. The Dr in the video did prison time & changed his life so it was from a very relatable perspective. I even wrote a song.
My first day in, I didn't know how to set up my PIN & voice verification on the phones so I asked a random Chicano who was walking past me. He gladly helped me out then when I picked up the phone he saw the tattoos on my hand & wrist. He asked me straight up, "aye you a Norteño?" & I told, "yeah foo, ***" (I'm censoring that because I don't go around claiming my shit to non-gang affiliates so I never say it on SW). He pulled his shirt down & showed me the Norte bird on his chest & told me, "we'll talk later".
After I got off the phone he came to ask me about the hood I was from, how I joined, the more he talked to me he was like, "yeah you're definitely a Norteño, you stand on principles like you're supposed to & I'm glad to see you're not all tweaked out on drugs or anything stupid".
Turns out he's an OG head that did 20 years in prison before he got out & straightened his life up. He was back in jail simply because he had a gun on him as a felon. He introduced me to the very few other Norteño homies. They showed me how to make my bed, how to operate amongst everyone. Chicanos & kinfolk aren't generally supposed to link with each other in jails or prisons but it's different for us Norteños. We see kinfolk as unified with us & they accept us the same way. So I was immediately good with all the Chicanos & kinfolk without any issues. That honestly made my short time in there very bearable because we could all just be real, talk, & laugh together. Even last night we were just laying in our bunks laughing our asses off forever before finally going to sleep 😅
Then my dad was able to post bond for me to get released 🙏 when I got out my phone was dead. I had no cash. I tried to buy a bus pass to get home but my card kept declining. This random guy outside the gas station bought me a bus pass & I was so grateful for that. I had to walk miles to the next bus though so on my way there I passed an older lady who commented on how fast I was walking. I told her, " I just got outta jail & my legs are killing me but I'm rushing to get home & see my daughter" she asked if I had a bus pass & I told her how somebody just gave me one. She was like, "oh I was about to give you one too 😅"
Then at my last bus stop before getting home, I asked a random guy if he knew when the bus would get there since I couldn't check my phone. He told me & we started talking. A few minutes later he pulled out a bus pass & offered it to me. I told him "no it's okay man I just got one thankfully" & he said "no look at it". I looked & it was a 31 day bus pass. I was shocked like, "bro those are pricey why would you give me that?" & He simply said, "you might need it more than I do. Plus I get them for free, just take it man".
I was soooo f*cking grateful 🙏 I just kept saying "man God is good. There really is good people out here" & now I'm finally home again.
Sadly, my daughter is at her grandma's because my gf was working late (if she's even still my gf 😔). So I won't see her until a little later but the entire time I was in jail she was all I could think about. Her... & going back to work. Because I missed a few days without notice & I might not have a job anymore. But I'm gonna go in on Monday anyway & hope for the best.
As shitty as everything has been lately, I'm grateful. I'm here, I'm ready to deal with whatever I gotta deal with. I honestly think things went the way they were supposed to. Maybe I needed to go to jail. I needed that time to think & reflect. Because when my gf left that note & took the baby I had no idea how to even fix myself 😔 I didn't know if I could. Now I know I can & I really want it more than anything. Because this type of life just ain't it
I always knew this could happen since I knew I had warrants. I was hoping I would have time to take care of my family & save up some money for a lawyer but life doesn't always work out the way we want it to. I thought it was already a bad day because my gf left with our baby... then I ended up in a cell that same night 🤦 so yeah... Shit could always be worse I guess.
Here's a little bit about my experience though. As soon as I went in I immediately cliqued up with the Chicanos & the kinfolk. I always love the kinfolk in jail because they're so funny & they make the whole experience feel easier. The first day, one of the older dudes looked at me & said, "you don't look like you belong in here" & I said what? Then he said, "nah I mean I've been watching you & the way you carry yourself & interact with people.. you look like you stand on business. You don't belong in a place like this". That actually meant a lot to me. He & I immediately got along. One of the OG kinfolk even talked to me for a while. He opened my eyes to a lot of different things & he had a lot of respect for me as well.
Once I got into my bunk, I was in an area full of 80 people. We just walked around hanging out, talking, exercising, & I did a lot of writing. One dude let me borrow his tablet so I watched a long parenting video & I took multiple pages of notes so I could bring it home with me. The Dr in the video did prison time & changed his life so it was from a very relatable perspective. I even wrote a song.
My first day in, I didn't know how to set up my PIN & voice verification on the phones so I asked a random Chicano who was walking past me. He gladly helped me out then when I picked up the phone he saw the tattoos on my hand & wrist. He asked me straight up, "aye you a Norteño?" & I told, "yeah foo, ***" (I'm censoring that because I don't go around claiming my shit to non-gang affiliates so I never say it on SW). He pulled his shirt down & showed me the Norte bird on his chest & told me, "we'll talk later".
After I got off the phone he came to ask me about the hood I was from, how I joined, the more he talked to me he was like, "yeah you're definitely a Norteño, you stand on principles like you're supposed to & I'm glad to see you're not all tweaked out on drugs or anything stupid".
Turns out he's an OG head that did 20 years in prison before he got out & straightened his life up. He was back in jail simply because he had a gun on him as a felon. He introduced me to the very few other Norteño homies. They showed me how to make my bed, how to operate amongst everyone. Chicanos & kinfolk aren't generally supposed to link with each other in jails or prisons but it's different for us Norteños. We see kinfolk as unified with us & they accept us the same way. So I was immediately good with all the Chicanos & kinfolk without any issues. That honestly made my short time in there very bearable because we could all just be real, talk, & laugh together. Even last night we were just laying in our bunks laughing our asses off forever before finally going to sleep 😅
Then my dad was able to post bond for me to get released 🙏 when I got out my phone was dead. I had no cash. I tried to buy a bus pass to get home but my card kept declining. This random guy outside the gas station bought me a bus pass & I was so grateful for that. I had to walk miles to the next bus though so on my way there I passed an older lady who commented on how fast I was walking. I told her, " I just got outta jail & my legs are killing me but I'm rushing to get home & see my daughter" she asked if I had a bus pass & I told her how somebody just gave me one. She was like, "oh I was about to give you one too 😅"
Then at my last bus stop before getting home, I asked a random guy if he knew when the bus would get there since I couldn't check my phone. He told me & we started talking. A few minutes later he pulled out a bus pass & offered it to me. I told him "no it's okay man I just got one thankfully" & he said "no look at it". I looked & it was a 31 day bus pass. I was shocked like, "bro those are pricey why would you give me that?" & He simply said, "you might need it more than I do. Plus I get them for free, just take it man".
I was soooo f*cking grateful 🙏 I just kept saying "man God is good. There really is good people out here" & now I'm finally home again.
Sadly, my daughter is at her grandma's because my gf was working late (if she's even still my gf 😔). So I won't see her until a little later but the entire time I was in jail she was all I could think about. Her... & going back to work. Because I missed a few days without notice & I might not have a job anymore. But I'm gonna go in on Monday anyway & hope for the best.
As shitty as everything has been lately, I'm grateful. I'm here, I'm ready to deal with whatever I gotta deal with. I honestly think things went the way they were supposed to. Maybe I needed to go to jail. I needed that time to think & reflect. Because when my gf left that note & took the baby I had no idea how to even fix myself 😔 I didn't know if I could. Now I know I can & I really want it more than anything. Because this type of life just ain't it
