I am desperately trying to write my life story. it is so painful, that it is too difficult.

@Donotfolowme sounds like a great idea. but i get real weird when i am being recorded or filmed. i am extremely shy.

@LILY61 Everyone feels weird when they are being recorded and a lot of people act weird too.

Just record a little bit, a few sentences to set the scene, the date, lace, and dramatis personae, perhaps. Remember there is no one but yourself listening. Put it down until tomorrow, then record a little more. Keep repeating this, after a while you will find it easier I'm sure.

The same applies to writing. Set a very low expectation. Just write one or two sentences today. Put it away and do something else. Add another couple of sentences the next day. After a while you will feel that a couple of sentences is not enough, add some more.

Don't go back and edit. That's a job for much much later.

Basically make it easier for yourself by not expecting too much all at once.

@ninalanyon All true if you have normal stories to tell. i don't have any normal stories to tell. when i have heard myself saying truthfully all that has happened, i feel sick and quivery and give up. it is so horrifying to hear yourself talk about things that are usually a horror movie origin story that leads to revenge and terror.

@LILY61 Perhaps you don't really need to write them down or record them after all? What is the reason for wanting to?

@Donotfolowme Having PTSD myself I can tell you that the best therapist asks you to journal about the event/events that plague you. Avoidance is half the issue and journaling/writing it down is a key to healing. That's why sweety.